Saturday, April 30, 2011

Absent, Crazed, Love.

The motions again and the moment again
and it repeats repeats repeats

And I'm writing and I'm feeling and you aren’t here
Will you be here tomorrow when it’s all normal again?

And that was when it all came crashing down on me.
This time it was real and you were there
and you were there?
and you were...

Cross paths cross ways and spill out a memory of gold
and mould me a concrete heart so it won’t break.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

"You can't always get what you want"

"You can't always get what you want"
The Rolling Stones said it. In what regards the Rolling Stones meant it is questionable. However it was tongued, it rings with meaning.
Today I figured out that we have dreams for a reason. We have visions of what we want in our life, how we see ourselves living, for a reason. We don't have these dreams to torment us, or remind us of what we can't have.

They were put there because, however undercover it may seem, those dreams, wishes, desires, visions are what we want. What we are to strive for. It is a goal implanted in us, for our own personal happiness.

And we don't have to settle. Don't settle for what your life is if it's not how you visioned it to be. People, even important people in your life, may tell you that your life is good, or to be thankful for what you have, or to be content and enjoy what you have. And all these things may be true, but it doesn't mean that that has to be your life.

If you find yourself not completely happy with how your life is, if you visioned it differently, it is a signal to do something about it. To settle for what you have and not going after your dreams, because, well, hey, "you can't always get what you want" is not good enough. Why the hell would you not try to get what you want?

To go back to the Rolling Stones, they developed their idea further; "You can't always get what you want. But if you try, sometimes you might find, you get what you need". The issue for them is want and need. How indistinguishable the difference is between those two terms. Need implies survival, and most would relate this to basic human survival. Want would be, by comparison, desires and wishes, not necessary to the continual existence of a person. But what about the soul? The deeper emotional side that makes up, arguably the most vital part of us as humans? Aren't then the needs of our soul, the typically classified 'wants'?

Without basing such a huge idea on a song, a key argument can be drawn from this. Those dreams we have inside us are not mere wants to be pushed aside, ignored, and deemed unattainable and frivolous. Those dreams are what our soul needs, our inner being needs. Why else would we feel so impassioned and constantly reminded of them? So, go for what you want. Aim for that dream, try and make your vision your life. Why the hell wouldn't you.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

write for purpose, write for reason.
spell nothing out without believing
that what you say is worth it.

write for purpose, write for reason.
list nothing out without a meaning
for whom you want to read it.

write for purpose, write for reason.
writing is not just means of expressing
writing is only half...the other is reading.

Monday, April 4, 2011

crossing my mind a thousand times
and then once more in the middle of the day
and the night.
never going to forget as much as I try.
that I gave up a lot for this.
and it might not work out.
and it might not work out.

crossing my mind a thousand times
and then again when i talk on the phone
and talk to myself.
coffee in hand and a shaky arm
I recall I gave up a lot for this
and it might not work out
and it might not work out...

crossing my mind a thousand times
and then never again.
it is over just like that.
that thought is gone
and i'm back to the beginning.
hypothetical speaking
hypothetical thinking.
wanting something to work out.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

still so real

It was a long time ago now,
Set back in school days
and we were too young
they said

And we didn’t feel anything
and your hand was cold
but we knew,
and I loved you,

it feels like a dream
But it is still so real to me
and if I spoke to you, id tell you

You are the reason
I wanted more
You are the reason
I tried harder
You are the reason
My life changed

Now it’s well over
and you love her
and I love him,
now